Real Life Numbers and How I am Changing Them…Fat Girl Makes A Life Decision

So I didn’t want to say anything until a week had passed and I stepped on the scale for the first time, but I made a decision last week to really get on the move and lose some weight.  Part of my motivation was my health screening at work where I was shocked and disheartened to see my BMI was 36.2.  Yup, you read that one right…36.2 puts me in the obese category.  I had also gained weight and was up to 217…ugh.  You see I am not afraid to share these numbers with you because this is real life stuff, readers, and I know some of you struggle as much as I do in this weight loss journey.  Go ahead, share you numbers with me…don’t be ashamed…I am serious.  These are my real life numbers and I am out to change them.  I am done with toying around with trying to lose weight on my own.  I have tried numerous diets over the years, including trying to Weight Watchers again this year with little success.  I am going to be honest…I cannot do this on my own.  I end up sabotaging myself and not even caring if I am eating a huge thing of Skittles or fast food every night for dinner.  That BMI is horrid as is that number on the scale.  SO I made a life decision after talking to my wonderful college roomie who has recently lost over 30 pounds and understands my struggle.  I joined Nutrisystem.

Why Nutrisystem?  I needed something easy.  Something I didn’t have to think about.  Where my food was spelled out for me, yet allowed me the flexibility to eat out and make better choices when I do so.  Plus, working nights is horrid with trying to lose weight.  You would think that a hospital cafeteria would have soe healthy options, but nope.  Everything they serve in the middle of the night is deep-fried or covered in sauce and really your only option is to grab a salad from the salad bar, which is sometimes gross itself.  I can only eat so much salad as well and 3-4 nights in a row it gets super-duper old.  Not to mention, they have no decent fat-free or low-fat salad dressings.  So, I usually end up grabbing something off the grill along with chips and pudding or something like that.  I needed help.  I needed something to be easy and I could bring with me to work.  That would force me to follow it because I spent money.  That is also a motivator.  When you spend money to get yourself to lose weight, it really does help.  So, after talking to my best support system, BFF, I made the decision to buck it up and join Nutrisystem to change my life.  I want to not shop in the Fat Girl section in the store.  I want to go into a dress store and slide into a cute dress like BFF does and walk out with several outfits.  I am tired of being the Fat Friend.  I joined Nutrisystem knowing it would be hard for me to cheat on it because I would feel guilty with all my food already handed to me.  My college roomie assured me that the food tasted good and it was super easy to follow.  I need super easy in my life,  So, late one night I went online and joined…my heart pounding in my chest as I entered my weight and my BMI and picked my plan.  I even made a member page so you all can stalk me under the name ladymiryaa.  Go ahead…stalk me.  Some call it stalking, I call it love…Fat Girl love.

I chose to customize my food mostly because of my nut allergy, but also because I knew if I didn’t pick food that sounded good to me that I would immediately have trouble sticking to it and try to sabotage myself.  So I picked what I thought I might enjoy and waited.  My plan came with both what Nutrisystem calls the Grab and Go items and frozen items.  I must admit, I was curious as to how the frozen food was going to arrive at my doorstep.  The Grab and Go items came first…in a HUGE box and immediately I knew I needed some place to store it as my pantry is not that big.  So I purchased a rolling three drawer cart that I could seperate the meals into and set about doing that.  I was excited at the prospect of starting right away the following day even though the frozen items had not arrived yet.  BFF and I excitedly texted about all my food and I read all the materials sent with it so I knew what I was doing (or at least hoped so!).  The next morning, I got up and started off my day eating a breakfast item…a cinnamon roll of all things! I mean, come on, who doesn’t like a weight loss program that includes dessert every day and sweet things for breakfast?  This Fat Girl was thrilled that I could pick ice cream and cinnamon rolls!  Hello sweet yum nummies that I do not have to give up!  I was pleasantly surprised that the food was not gross and didn’t taste like diet food or chemically at all.  We all know I have tried diet programs before, like the liquid shake one that tasted like I was drinking chemically laced fluid every time I drank one.  I might have turned slightly into a Borg with that one (you will be assimilated!) and this food did not give me that impression what so ever.  I was surprised by a knock on my door later when the UPS guy delivered a large styrofoam cooler with ice in the lid containing all my frozen items.  This styrofoam cooler was seriously ig enough to hide a body in it…well maybe you would have to dismember a little to fit a whole body in it.  Not like I have those thoughts…but it did cross my mind that maybe that was what I was gonna find when I opened it.  I was relieved it was just my frozen Nutrisystem items and not a dismembered body.  Whew!  Those quickly got put away and the cooler thrown in my trash for the next serial killer or SOTL Man to find and use to dispose of his Fat Girls he is keeping to get their skins.  Now he will know he can’t have me when he realizes that the cooler came out of my garbage can and I am trying to not be one of his Fat Girl prizes.  Take that SOTL Man!!

So, this leads me to this morning…one week on Nutrisystem and stepping on the scale for the first time.  I was nervous, scared, and excited all at the same time.  I stepped on, took a deep breath and looked down…wait.  That can’t be right.  Let me step off and step back on…yup same number.  I better check a third time…so I did…same result.  A Naked Fat Girl Dance of Joy ensued…down 2.8 pounds to 214.2!!  WHAT?????? Yup, you read that right!  2.8 pounds gone off this Fat Girl body!!  Hello being below 215 for the first time in years.  This feels amazing. When I went and logged my weight, Nutrisystem happily told me that my BMI was now down to 35.7…even that made me happy!!  I am super proud of myself and I love all the support I am getting from my friends, my Bubby and Pocket GF.  I couldn’t do it without the support system.  Tonight starts my first time back at work since I started Nutrisystem so adjusting the program to working nights will be a slight challenge but I know I can do it because I want to see more numbers like that…numbers that get smaller!!  Cheers to Nutrisystem!

Oh yeah.  I didn’t die today.  I did decide to change my life and wonder if the styrofoam cooler that could hide a dismembered body in it would be stolen out of my trash by SOTL man to put his Fat Girls in but I didn’t die.  I am Fat Girl sharing her real life numbers and down 2.8 pounds Running!!  The experiment continues…

8 thoughts on “Real Life Numbers and How I am Changing Them…Fat Girl Makes A Life Decision

  1. Christie Miller September 25, 2014 / 3:25 pm

    Congratulations on taking steps to increase your health and happiness. I wish you great success.

  2. Kellie Ponczko Kerschen September 25, 2014 / 3:47 pm

    So happy for you! Change it always so hard no matter what the change, diet, quitting smoking, and the millions of other changes people make to better their oppinions of themselves. So wtg!!!!!

  3. Lydia June Thanatos Alamo September 26, 2014 / 3:54 pm

    Bahahahahaha! My favorite is this: “I am trying to not be one of his Fat Girl prizes”. You’re going to really break his creepy heart, my friend. Who will he stalk now?!?!

    Also – I’m so excited for you! This sounds like a good plan, especially since you work so much at night and have limited options. And just so you know, after I talked to you about eating better the other night, it inspired me to try and do the same. Hooray meow!

    • The Fat Girl Running September 26, 2014 / 4:05 pm

      Hooray meow! Thanks for supporting me the other night too!

  4. Nadine Whitt September 27, 2014 / 8:12 am

    Love your blog posts! Inspiration for anyone doing the fat dance and trying on making changes! Go girl!

    ******”When you undervalue who you are, the world undervalues what you do.”******

    *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* *****Service to others is the rent you pay for your room here on earth!*****

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    • The Fat Girl Running September 27, 2014 / 8:17 am

      Thanks Nadine! It is a hard struggle and glad to know I can help others

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